Joy Is...
Joy is cutting an orange without mangling it
Joy is a sharp knife
Joy is a good chorus from a song on the radio
Joy is putting my feet up on the coffee table
Joy is knowing I am making nutritious food for my family
Joy is buying cute clothes for my kids
Joy is a good movie
Joy is knowing there is much more to life than a good movie
Joy is a mess on the floor and not caring
Joy is the stillness
Joy is the quiet hum of my computer
Joy is knowing tomorrow is last day of my work week
Joy is the soft bubbling of the soup on the stove
Joy is knowing I have frozen challa already made
Joy is seeing the angelic faces of my children sleeping
Joy is having a glass of wine to relax and actually enjoying it
Joy is finally feeling a sense of peace after a hectic day.
I commented to my husband today that I feel like I need a vacation but I don't know from what. So many hours of my day I feel like my head spinning and I can't really keep track of where I just came from and where I'm going to next. I would have thought that my schedule is pretty simple. Get up, be with kids, go to work, work, come home, be with kids, put kids to bed (no telling how long that step takes), hang out with husband, go to sleep and start over tomorrow. But it's almost in spite of or because of that simplicity that I subconsciously crave some action, some spice, and in the end I just make things complicated and feel like I'm spinning. So, before I start spinning, I decided to write during one of my moments of calm and joy. The earlier part of my day is a crazy, exciting and non stop buzz and kid-active kind of joy and business that right now I am not enjoying the break from.
Just to share in honor of the coming Shabbos:
The BIGGEST butternut squash I've ever gotten from a grocery store in my life!